I have a pinched nerve and I am letting it turn me into a crazy person.
I 
have never really had back pain. I did when I was in highschool, but I am sure everyone did with their large backpacks and slumping seats. In my adult life I have yet to have an injury thats dibilitating and depressing until now.
I know, pinched nerve sounds like something I am over dramatizing, but I’m not. It really hurts and when the pain comes it takes over my back from the bottom of the rib cage to the tip of my spine. Any movement feels like hell when the pain comes on and more often than not, if I am working while this is happening, I am letting the pain come and coqnuer until I am numb.
This has been going on for a month and I am just getting more and more frustrated as time goes on.
For help: I have tried yoga, which helps until I work at the restaurant. Massage, which helps for the day not for the long run, chiropractor – which is too expensive for me to go to on a constant basis, and accupuncture – which I have been giving a real shot, but the pain has only moved, it hasnt decreased.
I think people with mind/body awareness, primarily yogis, are used to feeling every sensation in their bodies and knowing pain is imperminant. Were used to “tuning in” and just knowing what feels out of place and what does not. I simply know when my hips are tighter than normal, and when I am holding too much hurt or pain in my heart that it is clenching my entire upper back.
This injury made me realize that maybe the rest of the population only knows when their body hurts. I know my boyfriend is only eager to stretch when he is in dibilitating pain. The same goes for many people I know – that they only take care when they need to recover.
So how did this happen to me? I do yoga all of the time. I am in good shape. I care about my back and body. Probably the mind/body reason.
I usually go straight to the source but I did some research on this since “pinched nerve” is not in Louise Hay’s You Can Heal Your Life.
The back also represents that which is behind you. Very often we do not see clearly that which is behind us. Back problems generally represent conflict between the urge to move forward and the inertia of an unforgiven past that holds us back. This tension very often separates us from both and pain is the result. Louse Hay suggests that backs generally represent support.
The mid back is the link between the shoulder and the lower back. It can be a weak link. As we firm up our shoulders and become willing to take on the responsibilities of Life, and we have gathered around us the financial and emotional support we need (lower back), something sneaks up and stabs us in the back. This is a blind spot. Not only can we not see it, but is very difficult to reach. The weak link crumbles. It is the saboteur or seducer that takes us off our path. Located in this area are the Tonification points (called ‘Shu’ points) for the Liver, the Stomach, and the Spleen. These organs are responsible for the transformation and transportation of Qi, and the free flow of Qi in the body. Blockages here affect the entire body and can stop you dead in your tracks. The Spleen represents Worry or Overthinking and the Liver represents Anger or base emotions. Both of these can sabotage even the best laid plans.
And that explination kind of settled it all for me.
I am in the place of moving right now. Moving physically, emotionally, locationally. Until this week when I decided on a plan with my life coach, I was stuck. I did not know what I was doing and when. I just kind of was waiting for someone to come down and give me the life I wanted. I was scared to move to a new city. I still am, but with her help she got me into designing what I want my life to look like and how I can get to that point soon.
I wasnt taking the responsibilites of life in and I wasnt letting myself transform into the me I want to be. Being in pain has jolted me out of my comfort zone in work, at home, in my sleep. I have never been so ready and hapily ready to leave NY.
Maybe I waited too long to get help- and that is why the pain is still here. Technically I did not move yet, I just devised and am living out a plan. But now, the pain only comes when I work at the restaurant…so you just have to wonder…
