I am a New Yorker by heart and soul and everything in between.
Watching my city and the surrounding areas be destroyed by the hurricane has made me incredibly homesick.
See, I moved to Boston 5 months ago, during a time when I hated New York. It literally had spit me out, because I let it. My life felt hard, and I didn’t have an accepting bone in my body anymore. I knew I needed to get out so I could love New York again.
Watching the rain fall on the news this past Monday, I realized what would had been if I was in New York. The truth is my apartment would have been flooded, and I would of lost memories and probably my cat.
I do believe in karma and I have cursed it when life didn’t go easy – but maybe this time my boyfriend and I were not meant to be in the middle of the storm.
It would of sucked and I am grateful that I didn’t loose everything (even though I don’t feel so grateful, and I really feel homesick).
I only lost my website, somehow. This website. And I have been trying to get everything back up and running but felt an innate resistance. Not the kind that tells me no, but the kind that sees an opportunity: here, I can pause, and create the website I really desire. I can do better than I had done before.
I started to think that this blog could also be better. It could be more honest and more consistent.
Why not.
What have you lost? What are you working on right now? Where do you need to pause and reset?